Golden Dreams

Sunday, April 09, 2006

Today, the Fight is Over

Sadly we report that Scott and I helped Fenway to "The Bridge" this morning. He couldn't hold himself up and could not hold down drinking water today. He went wagging his tail and long after he was gone his heart continued to beat. I told the vet it was because it was so big. I am very very sad. A part of me is missing, but another part that is missing is the anxiety. I feel, guiltily, a sense of relief, but moreso for Fennie.

Thank you to those who have been such a support system. It helped when the time came near.

The vet (at the new emergency clinic in town) felt his abdomen and there were some huge tumors in there as well as what she suspected to be blood. He fought long and he fought hard.

I suspect in the next few weeks we will get the call for our rescue dog. We figure since Fenway rescued us, we wanted to extend his legacy.

We won't be the same and will be sad for a bit, but we'll be ok.

PS: Rescue called at 3:30 today to set up an appointment for Tuesday evening. Fenway, it seems, is looking after us.

link | posted by Golden Dreams at 9:18 AM

7 Comments:

Mishka had this to say:: I was here...hope he is doing okay.; 1:38 PM
Lucas had this to say:: He's in a better place. Deepest condolences from the bottom of my stuffed-lamb heart. I'll still make a trip to NH to see you and Scott and maybe keep you company. I know I don't compare, but it's something...; 2:57 PM
OldOldLady Of The Hills had this to say:: Just had to come by and say my heart aches for ou both. Dear Fenway is truly looking after you. Bless.; 4:35 PM
Anonymous had this to say:: Bari and Scott,

Even those of us who never had the opportunity to meet Fenway in person have been touched by his charm, personality, and character. He inspired us with his determination to have a joyful life even as he struggled with cancer.

You have also been a lifeline for me as another person whose dog has HSA. I've very much appreciated your blog. For me it's perfectly captured the range of emotions a person experiences in dealing with cancer in a beloved dog.

My heart is very much with you today.

Katie and Riggs; 6:19 PM
Anonymous had this to say:: Dearest Bari and Scott, there are no words...there are no words. Just know how much Fenway will be missed and remembered. It is heartbreaking, but know that we feel he is watching over us now...and protecting us from afar. Another HSA Angel way too soon...be free handsome man on your new journey.

Ilene and Mali; 11:34 PM
sarcastrix had this to say:: I've been there too recently, and it won't be long before I'm there all over again. What else can I say?

But you're right... There will be another who needs you just as much.; 9:22 AM
Kelly and Angel Farrah had this to say:: I just read about this. I am so, so sorry. I know the pain you are feeling because I am still grieving for Farrah. If you need anything at all, please don't hesitate to contact me. I'm a good listener.

Love and Light,
Kelly and Angel Farrah; 9:31 AM